on the outside I may appear like an emotionless sarcastic piece of shit but just like an onion when you peel off more layers you find the exact same thing every single time and you start crying

*Me after eating one healthy meal*:  ... I wonder how much weight I've lost

Its times like these where I have no where to turn, no one to run into. This depression keeps pulling me deeper into its depths and no matter how hard I fight to get out, it just doesnt want to let me go. Im tired of trying, my hope is running out faster than I ever imagined it would. It kills me to be this weak, it kills me not to be the same person I was a year ago. 
Long story short, Im not happy… and I dont think I ever will be. I have to struggle to be optimistic when it used to just come naturally to me.
I am rapidly turning into an unsociable dark person.